More and More...

I'm finding nothing in my path but disappointment. I see things coming at a faster rate, and I can't seem to dodge them. They continue to happen, you know? And if I were to make sense of it all, I would have an easier time enjoying life. But they aren't for me to understand right now. I don't get any of it, happy? Not the lack of love, not the disappointment, not the loneliness, not even the boredom. I feel blank most days, but I get by with the help of music. Put something on and save my soul. Wouldn't want to blow my whole day being pissed off over what I can't control. So yeah, I'm in need of a better understanding of myself, and others are free to help, until then... I'm gone.